This has been a long time coming. It’s been a hard decision to make because I love writing so much but it’s time to move onwards and upwards.
This last year I’ve spent writing has been a dream come true. I have worked with some really awesome people who I never thought I’d be lucky enough to meet, let alone write for. There’s been ups and there’s been downs but it’s time to be realistic about life.
But it’s not all bad, in fact, none of it’s bad really. I just had a bunch of realizations over the last few weeks and the biggest one is that I need money to live. I hate that fact, I hate it so much. If there was one thing I could change about my life it would be that I simply don’t need to worry about money anymore.
If I didn’t need money I could keep doing internships and random freelance gigs here and there but it’s just so stressful stretching myself so thin. It’s the 11th hour and I’m well overdue for some stability. I won’t bore you with all the details but let’s just say that I can’t be 24 and need to go see a specialist doctor and not be able to afford it anymore, that’s the line in the sand for me. A number of other things (like being able to fix my car or even put more than $10 worth of petrol in it) have played a part in this decision.
You may be wondering ‘what does that mean exactly?’ and that’s fair.
So basically about a year ago I sat down and thought about careers and what I wanted to do. I knew I wanted to be creative and make stuff but I also wanted to be able to use my own voice, my personal touch on stuff. I had dabbled in photography before but never really ‘made it’ anywhere so that was off the table. I had been running a successful skateboarding blog where I reviewed skate products for some time and decided that I would expand on that. Thus DS&B was born. I thought that if I worked my ass off I may be able to get a job in cars or video game journalism. I still think I could if I had more time and money to support myself.
I’ve come to realize that the job ‘writer’ doesn’t really exist anymore either. You almost have to be a writer/photographer/designer/videographer/podcaster to get a job as a journalist in any industry. Or maybe I’m just not good enough a writer to make money, who knows!
The truth is, not a lot of people are willing to pay writers these days. Maybe it’s because any 15 year old kid can do it from his basement. Maybe it’s because those same kids are happy to do it for free. Maybe I’m just a shitty writer, but I can’t seem to find any solid work anywhere. A lot of people are willing to take writing you’ve done but never really do anything for you in return. I’m cool with that, in fact it’s almost been implied from the get-go but like I said the line in the sand is when I can’t afford to get myself to the doctor and that line has been crossed too many times.
I will still write of course, I can’t turn that off and if anyone is actually willing to pay me I will be happy to write for them. But now I’m only going to write about stuff that I’m interested in or feel needs to be said, like this I suppose. I’m not just going to put stuff on the site that I think potential employers want to see. What I’m going to be focusing on now is audio production (like the podcast you see below as well as live streaming) and video production. Two things I believe people will not only want to pay for but also that kind of have to pay for if they expect a good job.
I regret not focusing a little more on audio/video production, especially on this site which is acting a sort of resume for me, simply because I was so dedicated to writing and was sure someone would pick me up before I ran out of money that I didn’t realize how much time I was wasting, or rather not spending more wisely.
This is all coming off rather dickish I’m sure but I really can’t explain how much not having a stable income is effecting me these days and I don’t think it’s fair for me to be working so hard to only end up with more stress.
I’m curious if anyone would be excited to see more audio and video style posts rather than pure written content? I’m thinking video reviews as well as interviews in podcasts and the like, I would love to hear your thoughts though…
I must admit the thought of doing audio and video is rather exciting for me and I’m looking forward to learning more about both of those styles. As I said I’ll still be writing in some way – I have a new project happening with Zen Garage as well as finally getting my magazine off the ground (more on both of those soon) but in terms of pursuing it as a career, it’s time to call it a day I think, at least for now.
In the meantime check out this lighthearted chat I had with Beau about what I’m doing