I’ve been suffering from insomnia lately. I’m pretty sure it’s stress related because it feels like all that I do lately is worry about money, life, cars, and various other things that I’m sure I’m not the first person to worry about. There does seem to be an upside to not being able to sleep though, it seems that when I am wide awake at 3:30am I am also very creative and motivated. I find the only thing that really gets me to sleep is writing an article that I literally make up over the course of a few hours. One thing I had forgotten about that is also a semi-cure for Mr. Sandman not knocking on my door is photography, particularly long exposure photography.
The photo above was taken at around 5am, before sunrise in Sydney, Australia. It’s the view from my sun room which I wish I took advantage of more because it’s absolutely beautiful. I know the composition isn’t the best and I probably could have fiddled with the aperture some more to make the colours pop a bit better but I hadn’t slept in nearly 26 hours at that point so I think I can let it slide. I also happen to think it’s a very nice photograph which captured the atmosphere of my beautiful surroundings quite well. Although, I am rather biased aren’t I?
What I’m trying to say is that sometimes, our weaknesses can also produce strengths, albeit in a strange way. For me, it’s creativity and motivation, two things I often lack when I have slept properly. Does this mean I have to starve myself of sleep every time I want to commit to something enough to make it worthy of appreciation? No, of course not. What it does mean is that somewhere deep inside me there is a way to produce something more noteworthy than my average day to day nonsense.
In any case if you are perhaps having some similar problems, you may want to try, well, trying. Try something! Anything! It’s 3am in the morning, have a go at Flappy Bird or read a book about how to speak a new language, you never know what part of your brain will suddenly light up with excitement. It doesn’t even need to be that great but just do it and see what you’re capable of when you have nothing but time. You may surprise yourself as much as I have.